One without the other? Would that work? If you have no resolve, can you persevere?
I keep coming back to the words of Deng MIn Dao in 365 Tao where he wrote “each day passes whether you participate or not.” I often chastise myself for not doing more with my time and get comorted that it isn’t true . . . but I know it is.
I’ve done little of this quality since . . . I had a “done that, what’s next?” way of thinking. But something has changed, I can feel it. It might be something to do with age, that feeling that time is becoming more precious when you know that perhaps 2/3 to 3/4 of you life has passed or it may be because I have the time to devote to . . . what?
If you visit here often you’ll be aware of the breadth of what I do . . . and I love that aspect of just mucking around trying many things but now, now I want something a little more. In a word, I want excellence.
During the last couple of days I’ve left comments on two of my favourite blogs, that of Quinn McDonald and Diana Trout that excellence is my goal.
I’m such a dabbler flitting from one thing to another and while I can do a reasonable job in what ever I try, I’d like to be really good at one thing over and above all the others . . . to feel accomplished instead of ‘almost there’ and I guess that’s what keeps me going, the search for that fabulous feeling of a job well done at the moment of completion . . . and then do it again in search of that high. I need to focus or I’ll just fly around in circles like a catherine wheel and never achieve the best result that I’m capable of!
People get to the top of whatever they do because they have the drive and passion and perhaps that’s what others respond to as much as their work. I don’t necessariy want to reach some pinnacle of fame and fortune . . . I just want to be able to look at what I’ve done and say “Now that is well made!” I want it to be well made to my satisfaction which, surprisingly, does allow for small imperfections. I want to make things that I think are original, unique.
So my resolve . . . to persevere in my search for originality and excellence. Now I need to focus. Continue to muck around, yes, but perhaps flit a little slower between my varied interests? Is that possible? To flit at a slower pace? Maybe a month by month focus?
I started with questions and have ended the same way . . . that’s life.